I'm eating a weird abandoned little rich girls’ dinner. Stale toasted bread with dip which still smells viable but shouldn’t be. My caloric intake today would probably make an African orphan cry (but they don’t make tears if they’re more than 10% dehydrated, you argue) but it’s ok so long as I’m skinnier than you.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
“Hot as.” “Yeah.” We melt through the city in an ill-conceived attempt to find a toaster. Doomed from when we got in the car; the tongue of your seatbelt branded into your chest; there was a scene. The aircon in your car is on annual leave (Prague, with regards) so I fan us with my mother's scented sandalwood. We’re listening to Tame Impala and though I pretend to hate them, you know I know all the words. Failing to find a parking spot in the multi storey we park your shitheap in a fifteen minute spot on Beaufort, later returning to find it bristling with so many tickets it looks alive. It’s summer in the city. There are goths suffering in summer leisure goth, which is the same all year round, juvies screaming past in cheap fluoro appaz totes magsy, a bum dying on the sidwalk outside Chanel from dehydration. I watch but don’t intervene as a western suburbs honey pauses to sprinkle him with perfume. We hit Myer and spend so long drifting like stunned flies in the aircon that eventually we are asked to leave and forget to buy a toaster.
So you are leaving now. Maybe you will sit on the plane next to a fat man who apologetically belches and spills over into your seat like the wine from your glass, or a baby who pleasantly surprises you by sleeping all the way through to the refuelling in Hong Kong, as wizened and peaceful as a nut. Sadly they later wake up, look at you and howl mercilessly until their mother gags them with sugar. You wonder why they are crying so hard until you catch a glimpse of yourself in the window. You haven’t realised but when you kissed me for the last time I took a piece of you with me, it was your top lip (I was always fond of it) and your teeth gleam frighteningly in your mouth, like miscarried justice. Good thing you got travel insurance; did you read the fine print though?
I was so excited about moving from my old townhouse into my new house. I could hear my neighbours’ every fart and footfall. They liked to watch movies about domestic violence in Fremantle late at night, at least, that’s what I tried to convince myself while I drooled into my pillow. I think my new house is haunted, or maybe they just hitched a ride in the move, with the linen. I don’t think the ghosts are malevolent. Or benevolent. They’re just ghosts. Occasionally I think I hear muffled heels doing the foxtrot down the hall on their way out, or low voices in laughter. They sound like my friends.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Pottering around with a cup of tea. A droning starts up outside. Construction. On a Sunday? I peer outside to find a grotesque fly man on the phone, wings listing happily in the summer breeze, drooling slightly from his gruesomely segmented mouthparts. He buzzes and spits. “Yeah nah but that’s what I said to him. Straight down the freeway, great for the kids.” His compound eyes rove towards me and I pull back, shaking. I don’t think he’s seen me, but he’s stopped talking. The weirdest things happen when I’m on nights.
Sunday, December 2, 2012
So in love I caught fire one sunny afternoon at the beach, which was embarassing, to say the least. They saved my hands but not my face. With time and diligent rehabilitation I’ll be able to cook a steak, light a smoke and give you dizzyingly satisfying blowjobs. Now no-one will ever love me as much as you do.